The Me Inside of Me

"The Me Inside of Me" is the ninth song of Heathers the Musical. After killing Heather Chandler, J.D. and Veronica Sawyer successfully forge a suicide note which makes everyone rethink what life was like for Heather Chandler. Veronica makes Chandler’s life seem more like a load on her shoulders rather than a constant party; her meanness was a result of her loneliness, and suicide was her way out.

Lyrics
 [J.D.]

Think, long and hard

Conjure her up in your mind

What would she say?

What’s her final statement to a cold, uncaring planet?

[VERONICA]

Dear World

Believe it or not

I knew about fear

I knew the way loneliness stung

I hid behind smiles and crazy hot clothes

I learned to kiss boys with my tongue

[J.D.]

That's good

[VERONICA]

But oh, the world it held me down

Uh, it weighed like a concrete prom queen crown

[HEATHER CHANDLER]

No one thinks a pretty girl has feelings

No one gets her insecurity

I am more than shoulder pads and makeup

No one sees the me inside of me

Jesus, you’re making me sound like air supply!

[J.D.]

Keep going

This has to be good enough to fool the cops

[OFFICER MCCORD]

Woah! Is it murder?

[OFFICER MILNER]

No, look. Here’s a suicide note

[VERONICA & HEATHER CHANDLER]

They couldn’t see past my rock star mystique

They wouldn’t dare look in my eyes

[VERONICA & HEATHER CHANDLER & COPS]

But just underneath was a terrified girl

Who clings to her pillow and cries

My looks were just like prison bars

They’ve left me a myriad of scars

[HEATHER CHANDLER]

Myriad? Nice

[VERONICA & HEATHER CHANDLER & COPS]

No one thinks a pretty girl has substance

That’s the curse of popularity

[COPS]

Popularity

[PRINCIPAL GOWEN]

I am more than just a source of hand jobs

[VERONICA & HEATHER CHANDLER & COPS]

No one see the me inside of me

[PRINCIPAL GOWEN]

Heather Chandler’s not your everyday suicide...

[COACH]

You should cancel classes!

[PRINCIPAL GOWEN]

No way, Coach

I send the kids home before lunch and the switch board will light up like a Christmas tree

[PAULINE FLEMING]

Our children are dying!

I suggest we get everyone into the cafeteria and just talk

Feel together

[PRINCIPAL GOWEN]

Thank you, Mrs. Fleming

Call me when the shuttle lands

[TEACHERS]

Hahahahahaha

[PAULINE FLEMING]

I’m telling you, we all misjudged Heather Chandler

This is the loveliest suicide note I’ve ever read

[HEATHER CHANDLER & PAULINE FLEMING]

Box up my clothing for Goodwill

And give the poor my Nordic track

Donate my car to crippled kids

Or to those ghetto moms on crack

Give them my hats and my CDs

My pumps, my flats, my three TVs

[COMPANY]

No one thinks a pretty girl has feelings

But I weep for all I failed to be, I failed to be

Maybe I can help the world by leaving

Maybe that’s the me inside of me

[PRINCIPAL GOWEN]

Aw, hell! Long weekend for everybody!

[PAULINE FLEMING]

Hey, not so fast kids!

They’re refueling the buses

Which gives us a solid half hour of healing

Now, I have mimeographed copies of the suicide note

So you all can feel Heather’s anguish

[HEATHER MCNAMARA]

I never knew about her pain

[PAULINE FLEMING]

Go on

[HIPSTER DORK]

Her life had hit a rocky patch

[PAULINE FLEMING]

Feel!

[YOUNG REPUBLICANETTE]

Deep down, she wasn’t cruel or vain

[PAULINE FLEMING]

Heal!

[COMPANY]

She didn’t mean to be a snatch

[PAULINE FLEMING]

Veronica, you’re very quiet

What’s on your mind?

[VERONICA]

Uh, maybe Heather realized that in order to be happy

She had to give up her power

And that the only way to do that was death

[PAULINE FLEMING]

My God

Look what we’ve done

We’re breaking through

Heather would be so proud of you!

[COMPANY]

And you, and you, and you, and you

No one thinks a pretty girl can touch you

[GOTH CHICK]

Heather touching me

[COMPANY]

But she’s made us better and be heard

Heather’s dead but she will live inside me

And I’ll be the me inside of her

[HEATHER CHANDLER]

Holy crap!

This is awesome!

[COMPANY]

Heather cried

Our sins off her shoulders

[HEATHER CHANDLER]

Jesus Christ!

[COMPANY]

Heather died so we could all be free

[HEATHER CHANDLER]

I’m bigger than John Lennon!

[COMPANY]

Heather’s gone, but she will live forever

[MARTHA]

She’s the dove that sings outside my window

[BELEAGUERED GEEK]

She’s the twin from whom I’m separated

[STONER CHICK]

She’s the horse I never got for Christmas

[COMPANY]

Heather sees the me inside of me

Heather is the me inside of me

Inside of me!